Now come and introduce me to my kid you forgot to tell me about. I heard Reggie say, but I was too nervous to even move. I mean I've been waiting so long for us to be a family and now I'm scared. I took a deep breath, got up and walked over to my top drawer. Pulling a t-shirt over my head, I met him at the door. Our eyes met for a quick second before I lead the way to our daughters' room. Royal’s room was so pretty. It was purple and pink and decorated with little stars all over the ceiling. Soon as I opened the door her noisy little head had popped up and was staring right at Reggie. He stood froze at the door looking like he was seeing a ghost.
"Hey mama pretty baby, do you need to be changed?" I cooed her picking her up outta the crib. I laid her down on the changing table connected to the crib. After changing her I picked her back up then sat her back down in the crib. Royal pulled up on the crib and was now standing up and watching Reggie like a hawk. "Royal do you want to meet dada," I pinched her fat cheek smiling.
I stood there and felt myself finna lose it. As I look at this little girl who looked just like me, I couldn’t think of anything in the world I wouldn’t give her. I swallowed the glob of spit in the pit of my throat when Tae called be dada. "It's okay Reggie you can hold her," Tae said passing her to me. That was it, I felt the tears cascading down my cheek. She was beautiful. She was so small. She was so perfect.
"I'll go get her bottle, so you can feed her," Tae said leaving us in the room. I walked over to the loveseat by the wall and just stared at her. After Tae brought the bottle she left the room again. I didn't care long as Royal was right here. As I was feeding her the bottle, her eyes never left mines. I kinda felt like she knew I was her dad. I was somebodies' dad. What the fuck. Me, Reggie was somebody's' dad.
"Baby girl you'll never want for nothing. Even though I never had my father in my life, you would never experience that. I know I wasn’t there for you since birth, but imma always be here and you can believe that. I sat there and talked to her damn near hours. I had burp her, played with her, then laid her back in her crib. I didn’t wanna leave her, but I had to tie up some loose ends. After she had fallen asleep, I walked back to Tae's room and found her sleeping peacefully with only a pink bra and some pink and white lace boy shorts.
I woke up to somebody bamming on the door. My head was fucking hurting and I didn’t have the willpower to move. How could Reggie put his hands on me like that? I was supposed to be his girlfriend, but he wanted to be up under that thottie bitch. "Who is it, damn it," I yelled rolling outta bed. I literally crawl to the living room and to the front door. Not even getting up I opened the door.
"What the fuck is going on T?" It was Reggie. Oh my god, I tried to stand, but failed. Where was his key? He walked past me heading straight for the bedroom. I pulled myself up slowly but showly trying to get to the bedroom, but it was too late.
"Wtf is this man," he yelled.
"It's not what you think." I cried.
"It's not what I think. I think my fucking girl... Nawl I take that back, I don’t even know who the hell you is. How long you been on this shit? He was screaming so loud; my head was echoing. I know what he was thinking. I was a fucking crack head. Well I wasn’t. It all started the third time I went to Brandon's house. He made it seem so harmless, how fucking stupid was I to think that. I had a fucking degree and still allowed him to trick me. After I tried it, I was hooked and couldn’t stop. I been hiding it front Reggie for this long, but I just didn’t give a fuck anymore.
"Yeah you right, I am a base head. What you gon do about it, huh."
"You fucking pathetic man. I should have caught this shit a long time ago." He started to walk out the room, but fuck that. He didn’t deserve shit from me. He just wanted that shank.
"Yeah and you wanna know something else. I never wanted to have yo baby. That’s why I aborted all 3 of them." I blurted out. That was a big mistake. I saw the tears flowing from Reggie's eyes as he rushed me. The tight grip he had around my neck was unbearable.
"You fucking bitch. I'll ought to kill you right fucking now. You knew how much I wanted a kid. You knew I never had a fucking family and you fucking take all that away from me, not one, not two, but three fucking times. I barely caught the end before I blacked out.
After I left my used to be house, I hopped in the car and drove around for hours. Thinking back on my life, I never in a million years thought I would end up like this. The same shit that took my mama out was slowly killing Tina now. Who would've thought? I never met my sperm donor, so I couldn't tell you whoever the fuck he is. It had just turned 4 am and I was tired of driving around with no destination. I finally pulled over and just laid my head back. An hour had passed by before I saw Tae walking out the house. Still wearing what she had on when I left she opened the car door and got in. How many people believe in love at first sight? I didn’t at first, but as I look at tae then my baby girl. I believe it was god's willing. I sat up and lit the blunt of loud I had rolled earlier. Tae scooted over and kissed my temple, then my cheek, and then the corner of my mouth. She turned my face then kissed me on the lips.
"Let me take care of you daddy," she whispered in my ear. After that you know what happen. Damn I guess this was life.